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Why should I still be alive | mommaceitta's Blog


As life goes on outside my door, I wonder why am still doing here taking the air that belongs to someone deserving of it.
I am so lonely and have to spend so much time alone. It is really getting to me. My hubby has his disability, but he can get up and be gone every day, all day. and me not able to get mine and I am not able to enjoy very many things in life. I wish my kids lived closer and the I believe I would be better, just to have em around.
I hate how I feel about myself and him, but its just so hard.
they just tagged me in pictures of him having a wonderful time riding motorcycles, why they want to tag me? I sure wasn't there...I am not able to raise my legs high enough to get on must less ride. just to rub it in my face i guess. hello that's not nice...don't include me in your pictures when i am never involved..
oh well let me stop, and dry up these tears that i am not allowed to let fall, and pretend everything is ok. Pain has cost me everything, everything why don't it just take my life?

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